Asalaam alaykum wa rahmatullah,
Today in my complete cranky state I had a go at a lot of people who in essence do actually mean a lot to me. They possibly just looked at me thinking “err what did you do with asma?” and out of the excellent personality that they have they most likely gave me 70 excuses and shrugged my moody behaviour away. However, I am my own critic, and I knew something wasn’t right with me, just couldn’t figure out what… so after realising that something wasn’t right with my manners we searched for a solution.
Shaykh AbdulKareem (may Allah preserve him with His Tawfeeq. Allahumma Ameen) reminded us of the early days when we were just learning which woke us up to the reality that everyone has their own paths and struggles. And then the words of Maulana Rumi (may Allah be pleased with him. Allahumma Ameen) came to mind, like a slap to the face to wake this pauper up from her mess, and he said:
My dear heart never think you are better than others.
Listen to their sorrows with compassion.
If you want peace, don’t harbour bad thoughts,
do not gossip and don’t teach what you do not know.
Subhan’Allah my heart finally feels clearer and cleaner. To all those who got my impolite self today please forgive me. There’s really no excuse for snapping at you… even if I’m becoming restless, impatient, and struggling with quite a lot on my plate at the moment, you still deserve a lot of respect and compassion which this pauper failed to offer you today.
Please forgive me and keep this deficient soul in your much needed duas.
Wasalaam alaykum wa rahmatullah.