The Prophet Muhammad (peace and blessings be upon him) said: “When Allah loves a nation He puts them to the test.” [as narrated by Ahmad]
Sitting in front of ones desk with the “things to do list” piling up with “things to do”, she decided to stop and listen to the fact that ones heart was feeling quite “blank” and quite honestly… spiritually inept. So reaching out to the first book that came to her sight, she made a little dua for something that will remove the dark cloud of insecurities within her, and opened the book to read the following:
My dear son…
Hear one more thing from me and contemplate about it until you find salvation. If you were informed that the sultan was going to select you for appointment as a minister, know that in the course of this period you would not engage in anything but improving your garments or body, your house or its furnishing – anything you thought the sultan’s eye would be cast upon. Now think about what I have indicated to you, for you are quick-witted and a few words are sufficient for you. Did not the Messenger of Allah (peace and blessings be upon him) say: “Verily, Allah looks not to your outward appearances, nor to your actions, but He looks to your heart and your intentions.”
If you wanted to know the [different] states of the heart then look in the Ihya’ ‘Ulum al-Din and my other works. This science is fard ‘ayn [obligatory upon every individual] and other disciplines are fard kifaya [obligatory for some individuals in the community] except to the extent that it facilitates performance of the obligatory duties enjoined by Allah the Exalted, and He will give you success in achieving that knowledge.
[counsel from “Dear Beloved Son” by Imam Abu Hamid al-Ghazali]
Shukar’Allah for making this servant reach out to that book out of the many books on ones shelf, for allowing my hands to open up to that page in particular, and for shaking this heart, enough for it to cry, out of recognising the sign that verily You are closer to me than my own jugular vein.
Ya Allah, please don’t leave me for a second with my affairs as I am incapable of dealing with them without Your Guidance, Your Tawfeeq, and Your Sustainance. Ya Allah, please remove the veils from our eyes and heart such that we may reflect on Your Signs in order to strive to please You Only. Ya Allah. Ya Rahman. Ya Rahim. Ya Malik. Ya Quddus. Please accept us to see Your Final Unveiling. Allahumma Ameen.